Syria Starving…I figured it out

What i feel like when.....

November 26th dream….I know what it’s about.

Syrian children starving.

I saw on the news yesterday there isn’t enough $$ to feed all the refugees…they need 64 million. The man was upset.

They showed many pictures of the orphaned children and it was heartbreaking.

When I was in 6th grade I chose to do a project on Syria and the Sumerians, the ancient culture of Syria.  I  guess its one of the the very first societies.  I was very proud of my project.  I think my beginning there resonates.

You can read and see drawings about Angelophos and my communications with him and others about where I came from in my posts titled “Angelophos”.

I get caught up in today

I forget about before

The one they want me to know for some reason

The one they let me see for some reason

The before the beginning of me

of you

of life

of love

of EVERYTHING

For some reason

What i feel like when.....

What i feel like when…..

The head of a doll

Dremt a scary thing and I had to tell myself to not see it anymore. I had to stop dreaming the dream cuz I guess I woke up from it, im not sure, but i remember saying stop, stop and then “om mani padme hum” which is what i say for comfort when i feel bad or upset.

so the head of a doll,bald like a plastic cheap old baby doll, is being pulled from a chamber inside a tube by a person. when the eyes appear a puff of black smoke zips and zig zags from it and ends up on the bottom left of my image space,i’ts got a face of sorts and eyes and is snickering and sneering like a naughty child.

For some reason i think it has something to do with an ancient relic, like in Egypt or a middle eastern country.

I was a afraid because i don’t believe in bad spirits and this seemed to be a bad spirit invading my dream. NOT A GOOD THING.

The funeral home

My friends  mom died so I went to help her with funeral arrangements and as we sat in the funeral home talking to the director i hear her mom yelling at me ….no no no not this funeral home the other one the other one…..so i didn’t want to say anything right then cuz the director would have thought i was nuts so i get up walk to the window and whisper……its gona be okay its gona be okay……..she stops yelling and i go back and sit down.  so i don’t tell my friend right away until after we leave…….arrangements are made……….i told myself not to tall her but after a while i did and she said gees even in death shes complaining i cant do anything rght……i felt bad….should have kept my mouth shut but i felt like id experienced the wrath of her mean mother that she had always had an issue with as well as alot of other [people and now she yells at me from the after life………..she did say thankyou to my friend through me and i told her that too  so i guess its okay but it was pretty wild.

it makes me think i should work in hospice or a funeral home.

but then that could get really weird i suppose cuz not everyone wants to know this stuff.

i wish i could make a living talking to the dead, heavens knows i need the money.

i guess i don’t want it bad enough cuz i aint trying to be more conduit like.

Missing girl,car accident,brother and murderer

I’ve been busy and couldn’t post.

so about 4 days ago 9/28/14 was the Hannah Graham talk-
I woke from so dream and she came to me as I was wake in the dark ….(I don’t know why I woke but my dog is terminally ill with a breathing problem so often i wake now and listen to her try to breath)

she said “I can see a corn field….can I take a bath and get cleaned up……too much mud……..”

They now think it is saerial killer and the girl____i cant think of her name sorry——–was found i  a farmes feild hay…does that mean i bl-err the TV visual with the spirit?

SO if hannah grahamn did give me information about seeings a corn field then she is indeed berried near a corn field.

car accident was of my car and possibly a friend who i have called and informed that her burnt orange car flipped end over end in front of me in what seemed like snow and she has car the same color….

brother and murderer was about my brothers friend and MY former boyfriend who is a murder……in the deram were once again partners….not good as this guy turned rouge and drunk and very violent.stole my brothers business and so much more i cant write it…….recently accused of pushing his mother down stairs and killer her……which he did but got off….. and anytime this guy shows up in my dream IT AIINT GOOD..

Flying, dog dying, stomach gulp

Dreamt I showed some how i could fly-i have this dream so much i actuly try it in the backyard. just flap your arms…..
so then i see in the morning how “how t train your dragon” movie and the flying scene made me cry cuz i did that in my dream fly like the dragon….

my dog is terminally ill for real and at night i listen to her breath its more and more hard for her and soon i will have to choose not to let her suffocate from the tumor. last night i heard her breathing, i then dremt someone was stuffing water balloons down my throat to fill up my stomach….like her tumor was doing to her. i gulped and gulped like her. i wondered if it was her telling me its time…….

rooms of body bags

Dreamt and woke 4 am – why always about 4 am?

walking through rooms full of tables and body bags on them with stiff bodies in them. i couldn’t see the bodies but could see they were in positions of kinds..not laying down. they were like they died moving and got frozen that way. for some reason i felt they were burned or chard. i don’t know why i felt that but the 3 rooms were dark and as i walked through i felt a sense of aliveness, but they were dead. i woke saying “that was scary”…..and remember thinking at least i didn’t have to see the actual act of dyeing.

i felt sad because many people will die-or did and i found their souls. none asked to be crossed though so i think it will happen. what? i can’t say but they will be “caught in the act” and surprised by death not knowing it is coming.

abducted by long nailed chinaman

I woke from a dream-
I was abducted as a young child by a china man with really long nails and he wanted me as a concubine for himself and others. there were more girls there and more china-men and i cried and tried to run a way…..then somehow he turned nice and then i woke up.

It must be happening to someone. it makes me sad.