Flying, dog dying, stomach gulp

Dreamt I showed some how i could fly-i have this dream so much i actuly try it in the backyard. just flap your arms…..
so then i see in the morning how “how t train your dragon” movie and the flying scene made me cry cuz i did that in my dream fly like the dragon….

my dog is terminally ill for real and at night i listen to her breath its more and more hard for her and soon i will have to choose not to let her suffocate from the tumor. last night i heard her breathing, i then dremt someone was stuffing water balloons down my throat to fill up my stomach….like her tumor was doing to her. i gulped and gulped like her. i wondered if it was her telling me its time…….

rooms of body bags

Dreamt and woke 4 am – why always about 4 am?

walking through rooms full of tables and body bags on them with stiff bodies in them. i couldn’t see the bodies but could see they were in positions of kinds..not laying down. they were like they died moving and got frozen that way. for some reason i felt they were burned or chard. i don’t know why i felt that but the 3 rooms were dark and as i walked through i felt a sense of aliveness, but they were dead. i woke saying “that was scary”…..and remember thinking at least i didn’t have to see the actual act of dyeing.

i felt sad because many people will die-or did and i found their souls. none asked to be crossed though so i think it will happen. what? i can’t say but they will be “caught in the act” and surprised by death not knowing it is coming.

abducted by long nailed chinaman

I woke from a dream-
I was abducted as a young child by a china man with really long nails and he wanted me as a concubine for himself and others. there were more girls there and more china-men and i cried and tried to run a way…..then somehow he turned nice and then i woke up.

It must be happening to someone. it makes me sad.

sex, love, money

I can barely type this. It makes me feel like I’m cheating. How can a dream be cheating?
He came to steal me away from my byfd that I’m in bed with sleeping next to. He came and lay on top of me, I can smell him, it was a kind of lucid dream cause I was awake but a sleep. I don’t rem,ember calling out. he never touched any other part but lay on top of me and whispered soft….i dono what he said…..he touched my breast though and i wanted to be quiet because my byfd was right next to me,us, ya well me i guess. then in the dream the byfd wok up and saw him on top me and said “shit i guess you won her.” and he said “ya” and smiled and then gave me his wallet and said here hon take 250 and i counted out 5, 50 dollar bills and that’s when i opened my eyes. he is a soul mate who is still alive and far away but a soul mate none the less and we can’t be together, he won’t let anyone in. i feel his soul and i’m guessing he misses me and that’s what i experience, others peoples experiences. yahoo.

Example of the dreams I dream EVERY NIGHT

An old Native American Indian man tried to commit suicide in an indoor, man made channel / canal / lock by standing in it when the flood gate was lifted. He didn’t die just floated away.

A little Native American girl making mandalas with an eagle image on it and I told her I liked it.

My brother in a ruffled vampire like shirt with a rose in his hand and
his wife is ready for a trip to Disneyland with a small child but couldn’t go because she had no cat cage.

Yep that is just one night.

If I ad the time and will I would try to find out if the any of the brother stuff is true but I donno how to find out anything about the Native American people cuz i dono any. I wonder a lot if I’m remotely chiming in on a live persons experience or thoughts. I have the feeling I am but proof is not possible unless i go to a scientific place and get researched but i dono the names anymore, maybe i should research that!

Dream of the deaf India girl… and no response from FB

The Threshold

So I got no response friend request so far trying to find Qui Chung like the soul from the garden asked me to tell this person he loved them and goodbye.( from the last post.)  But I can’t watch the news any more till they stop talking about it cuz i cry too much.  None other so far have come to me to help them pass into the next world but it can take a long time sometimes after you die but surprise to realize you have to move on or WANT to move on.  After the earthquake in Haiti it was weeks of folks needing help in droves. Shoot one night there was a line of them carrying the thing that killed them, cement chunks,wood boards,huge pieces of stuff some of it balanced on there heads. They just walked single file across the threshold as I waived my arm in the air to open the aura  in my 99.9% state of sleep. (means I’m sleeping but know I’m awake, a really weird place)  What does it look like the threshold?  Hummmmm Almost like a solar eclips but not so bright…more gray and white. I should draw it, oh hey I’ve painted it .

The Threshold    The place between worlds


So as for the deaf girl from India dream lat night ….she wanted to be a massage therapist and I told her she could be one even if she was deaf.

Thats all.

And so it goes…..

after thought of plane crash

it could be a gift i have as it has brought me today a happiness in  thinking i am alive.

many i talk to are so rooted in negative thinking all i thought about listening to them is how happy  i am to be alive.

I should tell my daughter.

i will but she didn’t seem to be receptive today.

no one is. I tell no one but you…….. and hence the reason for this blog.

jean my accupuncturist  is ………maybe i’ll call her