I killed my dog

She is gone to the other side.  I ….no me and my daughter decided…..it was time to take her out of the painful state of drugs and being alive.  she looked at me and asked for help …time to leave and move to ne next life…..i cant describe no more right noe.

House on fire

I woke up at 3 am this morning…….peed and pet my dying dog taya…….went back to bed and tried to fall asleep “om mani padme hum” i say to my self to sleep…..eyes closed….almost there…..and saw of my friend, she gave me my new puppy mika,and saw her run next door to her house to her mothers burning house….it was burning from the top…….

alarm goes off….6 am…..get my “spark” b vitamin drink and amino acid “catalyst” capsules….turn on the kitchen tv change the channel to the am news….maybe hannas school is closed its so fucking cold out.  nope…..but the house on fire is there. not my friends mothers house but its a house on fire on top flames shooting out….a family escaped……..COOL…..yep the fire company was called at 3:40 am……..

thats the start of my day.

Spark in my eye

Last night the dog woke up my byfd and at that moment as I was kinda awoken but  my eyes were closed …a spark of light, blueish white shown itself in my left eye, with my eyes closed. Hummmmm.

Now you need to know my dog taya is dying of a cancerous tumor.   she is 10 and has been with us for all 10.  Its really hard to watch her wither,  i can’t help thinking that spark of light was part of her.

but then i thought maybe i was wrong …. my eyes closed-after the spark….its not taya …..i said to myself…..its a soul crossing that needs my help…..so i crossed them in my mind saying its okay you can go now.  but now later on today i wonder if it was a piece of taya wanting to leave. maybe preparing me for the soon to come day when i’ll have to make the decision for her …..that its time for her to move across.  i can’t even fathom it.  you’d think it would be easy for me.  maybe a small piece escaped her and wanted to go…….it could be that way as your body slowly dies i suppose,pieces leave,consciousness leaves in pieces, a slow stream of energy maybe.  what else was it?

never a day goes by that a newness shows itself to me

New York / New Jersey Attack



Originally posted on World Predictions:

I asked to clarify one last time the prediction on New Jersey / New York attack.

Around January 24th


New Jersey, around New York

higher floor (2nd floor?)

bellview, bellview!

Bell view is key to the location, they said it several times, they also wanted to clarify its around New York and most likely in New Jersey, which should eliminate certain locations, around the 24th, but in distant predictions the 27th was also mentioned.  But unfortunately no new news to inform you of.

I also want to thank NewsMax for sharing the prediction. Making others aware is essential to changing the future. Please take a look at the news article below that discusses Spirit’s prediction.


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I think I know about the upside down bed dream on 1/3/15

My mom is pretty desperate about my dad.  He is a hoarder and turning violent.  The house isn’t so bad as you see TV.  Only the basement,his office his bedroom his corner of the living room with his chair and a two story barn he calls his studio ….you can’t walk in any these places.  But mom is scared of him.  In a nutshell she is enabling him and always has.  but shes never wanted us kids to get involved until this last phone call (1/8/15) so there most likely will be an intervention.  yahoo. dysfunction is part of function and everyone lives it to some degree.  So the bed upside down dream is related to me too cuz my BYF is blowing me off about writing a will (12/31/14 was the deadline he promised happy fucking new year) and he aint getting laid till he does cuz i live with him and he has 2 brainwashed kids that hate him cuz of his vicious bitch of an x that will terrorize me if he dies cuz they want everything he has. dysfunction-i don’t want any of it, but i don’t want to deal with any of them either. the guy is 9 years older than me and 63 going on 9………  after 10 years together i deserve at least this piece of mind.  I did want to be married and he told me we would be but as soon as i moved in 5 years ago that went to shitty land too.  now i don’t respect him much and if he asked me today i wouldn’t marry him  cuz he’d just be forced into it.  so i wait for the bed to turn back up for me and my mom.  teetering………