baby killer

I woke from a dream crying i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry.

So i was in front of a person pointing a gun at me saying you killed the babies you killed the babies and i start to cry and say i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry and then i wake up.

i have no clue

This morning I was a human trafficking victim

 

Yep typical woke up crying @ 5 AM from a dream thing running from a man who was trying to get me. Then saw on TV human trafficking victims on a talk show AND they said the same thing about being chased and hunted down and beat up. AND I’m working for a not for profit that is running a campaign to help human trafficked victims.  Man am I awesome or what!  The universe made me this way, I wish I could understand why.

A change of sorts

This summer birthday party with my man and my bro and his wife we cooked lobster in the back yard with a bonfire.  that was my birthday present.  So after a few drinks i almost burnt the house down cuz the butter was in the house melting and i forgot about it ,came in finally and burners were blazing up fire as the butter kept burning. (fire is the a huge problem with me, I’ll explain later) Not bad enough but after few more drinks my bro,who i love very much ,said something i didn’t like so i said “i hope you fall outta your tree stand” his wife gasp cuz she know about me.

So end of Summer hes after bees 20 feet in the air and they start stinging him so he jumps off the ladder backwards lands on Lisa brakes her nose, he broke 3 ribs, punctured his lung, and got a concussion   that is still giving him double vision today.  Hes been outta work since.

I haven’t reminded them about this.  Better left not said right now till he heals….or maybe never.

So whats the change?   I didn’t dream this, i just said it.

 

Dimensions

I think I actually saw the separation of dimensions last night not in a dream but in reality during an out door hike at dusk.   I took pictures but it didn’t come through on a photo of course.  it was like a black fence with small square openings and it surrounded me as I walked.  I ask my bfd if he saw it and of course no, he thought i was nuts cuz i kept trying to touch it, but of  course could not. i’m going out at the same time tonight to see if it happens again.  if it does I’m gonna use my daughters really good DSL camera.

Me and my sister were talking to my mom about quantum physics and the new theory of everything happening at once 2 days ago.   I think it presented its self to me.  I think I witnessed the “fence” that separates the dimensions we can’t see!  Of course if I can’t get a photo nobody cares.  I could draw it but the reality is it ain’t no good to nobody but me.  What do i do with that?  Blog about it is all I can do.

Can you see it?

5:13am

asleep

taking care of baby birds that looked like mice then backing up a big silver truck up in the snowy rock hill.

woke up to pee grinning at the silliness of this.

went back to bed, got up 6:15 am looked out the window and the neighbor with a big silver truck was just driving away from his driveway, he always backs out of his driveway,and it had just stopped snowing.

i bring my kid to her last final test in first year of college.  stopped at the traffic light, a hawk sails by my car on the passenger side with a varmint in it’s grips….i have to guess it was a mouse.

heavy sigh.

why me?

 

 

dream 1/2013 came true 12/16/16

1/3/13 12:16 pm Car accident dream & drawings

This was in January 2013

On tv i saw a video on the news of 2 people in Syria pushing a cart with dead children on it-the clothes matched my drawing.  The maggots and bumps on the legs were most likely the deteriorated blueish legs.  The angle of the video was someone with a camera behind the people pushing the cart and the legs were wobbling and you caught a glimpse of the state the bodies were in.. The traffic jam was later in the day as I was driving we had a snow storm and traffic was terrible and the giant tractor shovel was plowing the parking lot.

I said before that I have some kind of connection to Syria.  Must be my beginning place. I did a report in 6th grade on the country and I was so proud of it.  I did some psychic stuff a while back and found my spirit guide Angelophos  near there when humans began.

 

Oh well, and so it goes for me.

Heavy sigh

woke from a dreammare….nightmare part dream….crying.

thats bad

whats worse is i was saying i miss my mother.

The particulars…….my dad was there motering in his cannoe and had too live geese tethered to the canoe and he was taking them up strem to hunt????  I donno. and then i think it wsa mom or me explaing  a wall of images she had collected throughout her life.  and then i woke up crying

my dad died 2 summers ago sudddenly of pancreatic cacncer and i dreamt that he was leaving about 2-3 months before he was diagnosed.

My sister asked my dad 3 nights ago to send mom a sign that he still loved her cuz she was having a really hard time. He did and it freeked my mom and her dog out.

mom is a chain smoker for 55 years and has pancreatitus.  her recent mri showed noduels in her lungs.

Mom is a saint. she married a dictator that treated her like shit.but she still loved him cuz she was raisewd in an abusive home.

I know everyone dies.

but right now i have to cry cuz ……

ok done.

so now i blow my nose and convince myself for the enext 24 hours it doesn’t mean shes gona die soon.

some gift i have

 

 

 

Sorry gotta go to my other posts to understand the one before……Basically Iwas given information that she was ddead(I tink) an were to find information about her

hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Missing girl Briitney

oI   saw the man they thiet intevir=ewed an an dhe was the one…..thethey said theyganged bangeded her an shot her and throuw heer into th analigaotaor pit….soundzs right…..i still see sunf=gklasaases somwwher  and anothe mayeb wallet ,puse,wateverer of hers on the side of the road wher e she showed me 3 t

tears agoe.

Sadness

I feel sad…I am now an activist for the awareness of global warming because we need it…